15 Years of Better
15 years ago everything in my life changed in the best way.
I have never loved harder and had to cry softer.
Had the highest sense of purpose and felt more unsure about every decision.
Been less hippie (a lot less music festivals) and at the same time, more hippy (some pants will never fit again).
Over all this change made me a better person and I am grateful for your existence.
Happy Birthday Azul!
Oh yeah, I forgot about suffering from the stupids (case in point) and one day I hope to have the right word for no longer saying things that are cringy.
Birthday Best
At the end of the evening, walking hand in hand to get Azul’s pajamas on, he turned to me and said, “I had a good birthday. You’re the best Mommy I ever had!” I hugged him and said, “You’re the best Azul I ever had.” That was the best present I could have received, other than the one five years ago.
Small Packages
Last night there was a ring at the door, which usually means we have a delivery. Azul loves when we get deliveries, especially so close to his birthday, and he ran to the door. Sure enough, a package, addressed to me sat at our doorstep. I knew what it was and Azul ran to get the scissors. “What did you get me?” he enthusiastically asked. I replied, “It’s for me.” He saw right through me and asked the question again. I think this is when he sensed a sign of weakness in me. I came clean, “Okay it’s for your birthday, but you can’t open it until it’s your birthday.” He then moved on to the interrogation: “Is it a toy? Is it a game? Is it Legos? Is it Star Wars Legos?” My answer remained the same, “No.” With his hands on his hips he sternly said, “Prove it to me!” There was a pause and then we both started laughing and I said, “Good call, if I proved it to you then I would have to show you.” A quick “Yup!” and the questioning continued as he went through the toy catalog on the kitchen counter. I held strong and didn’t give up the contents of the package, but he almost had me there.
Carmelina Hart 