I have a confession…
I never wanted to be one of those women and I never thought it would happen to me. I actually despised those women and secretly (maybe not so secretly) made fun of them. Who did they think they were?
But, things and feeling change, people change. You change too. You get married, have children and become wrapped up in doing things for others and not for yourself, and that trend turns into a lifestyle, trickling over to other aspects of your life. Ugh.
The years start to go by faster and faster, you feel like you’re running out of time. Then the societal reminders start coming at you at an even faster rate. And technology makes it even easier. You know it’s not right, but you let go of the reins, no matter what your intuition is telling you. What is happening to me?
I have really fought this for years, but I couldn’t any longer…
I bought a Christmas present before Thanksgiving!
Okay, I bought a lot of present already! Why?
Deep down in my soul I know this is wrong, I don’t even shop on Black Friday. But, I did it, and now I have conflicting feelings of guilt and satisfaction. All the gifts are still tucked in their shipping boxes stored on the highest shelf in the closet, but I check on them like a sleeping baby, just waiting for them to awaken. I can’t wait!
Oh, one more thing. Does this count as decorating? I picked up a rosemary bush shaped like a Christmas tree and put red star lights on it. Oh, please help me!
Azul is already in full Christmas mode! He has been creating his “want list” from catalogs we receive in the mail. While looking through The Land of Nod, he decided he wanted the Camper Play tent from us. I’m okay with that because I think it is super cool and have no problem getting him that for a present. And I have already measured out his room and am redesigning his bedroom layout so it will fit. Once he chose, I should have put the temptation away, but I left the catalog on the kitchen counter. Now his new “want” is the Rocket Shelf. It’s cool too! I was informed that, “You can get me the Rocket first and then the Camper.” I told him, “We can get you one or the other, but not both, so which one do you want?” Surprise, surprise, he replied, “I want both.” Standing my ground I say, “We will get you one of them as your Christmas present from us, which one do you want?” He looked at the catalog, turning the pages back and forth, obviously in a state of deep concentration. He then looked up and said, “I know, you can get me the Camper and you can tell one of your friends to get the Rocket for me!” That was not what I expected him to say and was near spitting out the water I was drinking…through my nose. He is quite the problem solver. Now, I’m the one with the problem.